My recent test of discipline

Right now i’m in the hospital,

Had a bit of a scare,

Wasn’t me but someone close,

Rushed in by ambulance,

I got my new born baby with me,

Lack of sleep, no food or water yet,

Lets just say the pressure was on me to be as solid as a rock,

One falter in my demeanour,

Show of weakness,

Would mean others that look to me for strength would mentally crumble,

And we can’t be having that shit,

So I stay focused,

One thing I learned about myself,

Is when shit hits the fan, really hits the fan, like life changing emergencies,

I have an ability to break down the scenario into simple terms,

So i can determine what is in my control,

And what i can do to create the best outcome possible,

So here I am,

Shit going down,

I’m staying solid,

When I get a little breather and things have calmed a bit,

What do I do?

I do 100 push ups and worked on my KDP,

Sounds a bit nuts,

I’m on the hospital floor banging out push ups and people thinking wtf am I doing,

Then I buss out my ipad and start working,

Like I said I have an ability to break things down simply,

At that moment, it was a case of asking,

What’s the best use of my time,

I’ve done what I can for my hospital dilemma,

Maybe I have 10-15mins,

Do something productive,

My mind was trying to tell to take a minute,

But I thought fuck it,

I’m staying on point,

I don’t like hospitals,

So I have to have my wits about me to notice shit,

Like the nurse that just tried to administer the same antibiotics twice,

True discipline comes when you have your back against the wall,

Bit like only being able to be brave when you are truly scared,

What I’ve taught myself today,

Is if I can work on my KDP whilst going through what i’m going through,

How will I be during my regular days,

I’ve just upped the bar,

And so can you,

At the first sign of giving up or not feeling like working,

Do a bit,

Set the bar a little higher,

Those little efforts test your discipline,

And compound inside of you,

It’s all about continuous improvement; Kaizen

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